3 and a half weeks

well it is august. that means school starts back and i get to go see joe! i have 3 and a half weeks until i get to see him graduate. i miss him like crazy. the other day A asked about him i told her he was still at work and she just sat on my lap and cried. it broke my heart. she will walk around with my phone with a picture of him pulled up on it and makes people kiss dada. its adorable. i cant wait until we can finally start life. i feel like we have kinda been just existing and surviving the last couple years. with him making so little and living with my mom. now we will be all on our own in our own house with our own everything and i am so proud of him for doing this for us and our country. we fin ally get to move away and get away from all this and the reminders of all the crap we have been through with all the bad memories. we finally get to move on start over where no one knows our past doesnt expect us to be a certain way. we get to just be us. i am finally free of all the crap i hold back because it might not be how they think i am. i dont have to hold back on telling people things about how im going to raise aubrey. its so freeing. this month makes me realize how different my life would have been without brittany showing me how there are so many other ways to live life and not to just do what "normal" people do. i have never been normal so why parent like that. i am so happy with my choice to unschool i cant even remember a time when i thought school was awesome for her. she needs to live life and love life. my motto is live free and that is what i will teach A and how i want her to live. i will be reminded of it everyday when i get it tattooed on my foot soon. life seriously is good and im so happy with how things are turning out. even if no one visits me when i move away because apparently a lot of my family isnt planning on it. that is oka. if you dont want to visit fine. you dont have to see how awesome of a life i am making on my own. not like you care about my life as it is when you live 10 min away. i am moving foward with life and not letting people or things hold me back. i am a new brandi who doesnt hold grudges and is just happy. if you dont want to be apart of that fine. i have 2 friends i know will always be there for me and make time for me. i dont have to worry about them i know they will stay in touch and visit us when they can. that is all that matters to me. they will be the hardest to leave anyways. some of my family will honestly not bother me if they dont talk to me or visit ever. i dont want them to start being fake just because i moved away.