how to deal with family

i have no clue how to handle them. i dont want to keep my daughter away from her family but man none of them pretty much are good examples for her. i cant trust anything most of what they say. i hate how most of them act. some will just try to smoke pot right in front of her. i cant believe the level of disrespect they have for me and how i feel about things. i just dont want her around most of them. they cuss like sailors and do not censor around the children. they are the most judgmental people i have ever met. they are super 2 faced. i just seriously dont know what to do. they do not respect me enough to not do these things around her. even if i asked they would just bash me like crazy. thats something else. they bash every decision i make. i just dont need that kind of people in my life but they are my family so i cant disown them. i just wish it was easier. this is just driving me crazy. im racking my brain  for solutions but i cant think of anything. i love them but they are seriously nothing like how i hope my  daughter turns out to be.

Christmas 2013

so Christmas was yesterday and we are just so lucky. i know a lot of people do not get a lot of things and i am so grateful to all our families and all they got for us. i am currently on my computer my mom got me. i love it so much. i also got some money from my mil and sil and a big bang theory tee shirt from my little brother. joe got tools from my mom and money from his brother and mom and from my little brother he got an axe gift set. Aubrey racked up! she got so many awesome toys! her Christmas eve present was a couch that my nieces had and they loved so i had to get her one. we also got her a stationary car, a steering wheel, a body parts bear, and i feel like im missing something else. lol. our families got her a baby doll, a toy the projects stars on the roof (i forgot the name), a jacket, a cool orchestra toy, bath boat, bath crayons, tablets that change her bath water, an awesome play phone, read with me violet, a guitar. i guess thats it. im probably missing something but i have an awful memory. i am so grateful for everything.

we have decided that for chrismas every year we are going to ask aubrey to donate something to other children. we see how kids are and they are all about what do i get and they do not understand how lucky they are to even get one thing. i dont want my daughter to be like that. i want her to help people and not be self centered or feel entitled. my whole family (yes even i used to be that way) is like that and i feel terrible for how i was to my mom thinking i should get everything. i want so much more for her than what i have done. i am very proud of the kid she is becoming. she is only 19 months so idk how she will actually be but i am proud of what i see so far. i think i am doing well so far as her mom. no matter how many family members want to bash me. i just always try to think about what is best for her and our family. as much as i hate that they bash everything i do i could careless. i am doing what is best for her.

these are some christmas pics

so silly in her christmas dress

her car im in love with

her new couch